Well, pretty much in a flash if I may add. I can’t quite believe that 2018 is almost coming to an end and this year, my blog has remained largely inactive as I turned to Instagram to share more of my musings. At my peak, I’ve had over 4,000+ followers and I did want to achieve over 5,000 followers before the year ended. But then, one day, it struck me that I was just churning out content on Instagram for the sake of attracting new followers. The perks that came along with collabs and product sponsorships were definitely an attractive part of the package but I didn’t know if I wanted that.
While Instagram is a quick fix for blogging, the world of Instagram felt mind-boggling. As its name suggests, there was a need for instant gratification and validation from people who may or may not know me. It became a double-edged sword. I wasn’t comfortable revealing parts of my life to the people who don’t know me or who think they know me. Well, why give them food to fodor? I didn’t want the validation from people who think they know me. So one evening, I decided to cull my list of followers. I must say that my fingers hurt real bad after looking at my list and manually deleting the people who I didn’t know. No offense really but I just wanted a platform where I can share bits of myself openly without people talking behind my back. Well, like it or not, that’s life but I can limit how I want to share bits of my life.
So 2018 has been a year of revelation. One that I had struggled with – in my jobs (juggling a flex-work arrangement along with my business) and my friendships (hard to mix business with pleasure, but I’m learning along the way). My darling child continues to be a constant source of joy in my life and my husband, my constant source of hard truths in life.
Another month or so to wrap up 2018. It will be a crazy couple of weeks as the retail scene ramps up. But well, I’ve just gotta push on!