What drives you…

We all go through struggles in life. Some smaller, some larger and some just takes a longer time for us to overcome.

Holding dearly to these words as a reminder that I can overcome these struggles. Maybe not today but eventually I will be able to do so.

And it’s actually kind of therapeutic to watch this quote come to life with this letter board from Letter Soiree.

Trying to keep up..

Don’t you feel that there’s always a constant need to try to keep up? Apart from appearances, it’s also trying to keep up with the rest of the world. Social media seems to be the most efficient tool to utilise to keep up with the ongoings of the world. But sometimes it does become quite the monster in its own right.

I question myself as I scroll the hundreds of pictures in squares on our IG feed, I wonder if the pictures are a true reflection of one’s life. Sometimes it is but sometimes it isn’t. I’m guilty of that, I post pictures of the Bub smiling but behind that smile could have been a meltdown waiting to happen. We don’t post pictures of those for we are either busy dealing with the situation or it’s just not picture-perfect of one’s life.

So perhaps this is a reminder to self. To enjoy the present, the moment. Sure the pictures capture the moment but I don’t always need to be in a hurry to share it with the world instantly. I don’t need the world to embrace what I post but for it to matter to people who matter.

And what’s the point of the photo? Well, it just cheers me up looking at my Bub being silly and just having fun. That’s what life should be about. Laugh, be silly and have fun!

I’ll try to come back to blogging more often for it’s in this space that I find myself sharing more candidly about our lives. Some may ask who’s got time to read blogs these days, everything needs to be quick and fast. Yup, even on social media. Well, perhaps that’s true. To keep up with the trends, one needs to be fast and think on one’s feet. But I’m already doing it at work, I don’t really want to be caught in a hamster wheel of constant chase.

 

Another year (older)

For a good number of years, we usually like to celebrate my birthday overseas. Not that it was intentional but it usually coincided with a long trip that we will take that spanned across 1.5 to 2 weeks if we can help it. This year, our upcoming holiday is a lot later so we stayed in the country to celebrate the occasion. A rather muted one but that’s fine because I just needed a little break before the upcoming not quite know it’s going to be a holiday – holiday (haha).

IMG_1813Decided to take the day off and we had plans. Grand plans in fact. But we had to activate BCP when hazy conditions persisted. Woke up in the morning and greeted with a kick from Bubba who cried in the middle of the night and landed up in our bed because the Man said, she wants to be close to Mama on her birthday. It was actually cute because the Man snuck a birthday card that he had done up on Bubba’s behalf documenting how she has been with us for the past 15 months. Aww.. indeed.

IMG_1903 And the grand plan originally included a quiet dinner for two but we changed it to lunch for two. The company was all that mattered and the food at Wild Rocket (my first time there in like 5 odd years) was lovely.

Part of the plan was also to pick Bubba up from school and head down to Gardens by the Bay to check out the floral displays. But when we went to school, her teacher shared that Bubba appeared to be having the runs. The Man was afraid that it was something more serious as the night before she vomited her food out. So we headed to the clinic instead to have her checked out. Turns out she could possibly be having a mild case of food poisoning, so we decided to just head back home after running a couple of errands.
IMG_1951And it was a happy mail day too! I received this pineapple dress from White Filly which I had purchased from Kookies and Milk. Love the quirky design and you know, it would be great for Chinese New Year despite it being white with black graphics because it has pineapples all over the dress. Pineapples signify wealth so this would totally fit in for the occasion. Haha! It’s still too big for Bubba for now as she’s literally sweeping the floor with the dress but in a couple of months time, hopefully it will fit her better.

IMG_1949And we fooled around for a bit before heading to a simple home-cooked meal and a birthday cake blow-out. 🙂

IMG_1993As for presents, I’m blessed! The WC Tula that I scored just under 2 weeks ago arrived on my birthday exactly! Coupled with online purchases that I made for Bubba, a rainbow swirl power-charger I scored at an Instagram contest and lovely gifts from my family and friends, I’m one happy Mama!

Now am looking forward to our trip to Italy where the real shopping begins! I’m making out my list and picking out my birthday presents then. Hehe…

Happy

I’m happy because I’m in my fave city celebrating my birthday with the people who matter the most in my life.

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It’s a tad challenging traveling with Bubba but I wouldn’t have it any way because she is the best birthday gift I could ever wish for in all these years plus I don’t really want her away from me on this special occasion.

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Happy Birthday to moi as I made a wish, blew out my candle with my loves and presents in tow. 🙂

Regaining sanity…

Remember confinement? That will end in approximately one week’s time. While I am happy that I no longer have to eat food that’s either pork, steamed fish doused with wine and loads of ginger to warm the body or drink up loads of longan/ red date tea, another wave of worries have enveloped me.

You see, we hired a confinement nanny to care for me after delivery. There are pros and cons in selecting a confinement nanny to care for the mom. Some of the reasons for doing so were so that my meals can be cooked and prepared by the confinement nanny, she will take care of Sophie while I rest and also do the graveyard feedings so that I can sleep through the night. The latter didn’t really happen for I’m up pumping through the night but I guess it beats having to physically nurse Sophie for now. The nanny also helps to prepare my daily baths with medicated packs of herbs specially boiled.

We contemplated on extending her for another month but the Man assured me that we will be able to handle Sophie when she’s gone. After all, sooner or later, we will have to cope with managing Sophie on our own. I guess that’s true, with so many people in the house, I’m sure we will get round to looking after her. But then with the recent turn of events, I wonder if it will be the case.

I wonder if I am able to cope with caring for her full-time despite having the help. I wonder if I can cope with the feeds throughout the night? Will Sophie and I be disturbing the Man while he needs his sleep to get through work? Will things at home come to a standstill? Will I be able to calm Sophie down when she goes into one of her wails leaving me all vulnerable. Will I even be able to go out and steal some time to be on my own? Maybe it’s just me wanting to do everything since everyone else at home have their duties to perform. Perhaps it’s also me being a first time mom, wanting not to impose on anyone since Sophie is my child and I want to be the primary care-giver for now before going back to work.

Yes, I know I worry too much. Sometime I wonder if I have bitten off more than I have chewed. Friends and dear ones tell me that it does get easier so I’m really crossing my fingers and saying my prayers hoping that it will be the case.